Tuesday, November 30, 2004

Ate 2 types of cheese cake (Oreo n lemon flavoured), ate sate... ate Nasi Ayam Panggang.... ate ate ate ate ate ate ate ate ate............................................




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Monday, November 29, 2004


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Wosh.... wosh.... Sprinkler






Sooo Much for remembering the GLORIOUS 50s lar!!

Sooo Much for remembering the GLORIOUS 50s lar!!!

Hmmm... where do i start....Ignoring You

Let me recall what happened on Sunday, 28th Nov '04. Moi attended PPIS 53rd Golden Anniversary cum appreciation Tea. Supposed to wear yellow or golden clothes to Sheraton. So, i wore my little black dress (muakakakak- its very little now! coz i gain weight! boohooo!!) and bought a shiny yellow shawl (very the Little House on the Prairie - i know i spelled wrongly). I luv my outlook! Bouncy 8

So, the programme was.... a bit below ok, the MC was 25% below ok, the food was 50% below ok.... and prizes.... 25% above ok. Had fun clapping hands and rolling my eyes whenever the mc said the wrong things. And yeah... met Ayat (Cambodia). It was like a little Cambodian reunion.

Went to Kak Raihan's house after that. The food there was FANTASTIC!! Thanks Kak Raihan for preparing the delicious delicacies! Yummmmyyyy!!!!

Another thing about yesterday... i didnt really get to enjoy the whole show... apart from the mediocre hosting, i received news about my FSC effected in flood. FLOOD!!! Can u believe it???? Flood in Singapore, in MY Family Service Centre. Boss said some CPUs affected. Our Video Camera affected. GOSHHH!!!! I was sooo Worried!~!!! This reminds me of the 50s... constant flooding.. especially in Syawal.. haha.... so much for re-living the golden 50s...

So i went office just now... Monday morning... my feet wet when i stepped on the carpet. Yuccksss!!! So i began to salvage my things... the only thing damaged: My notes.. my beloved Multimedia notes!!!! UwaaAaAaaaaaa~~~!!! Teary

I got over it..... Walking Home Crying

Boss allowed us to go back @ 4.30pm. WooOooOOhhOooOoooO!!! Sunshine

Went swimming just now... Managed to only swim 14 laps in an hour. Dang!!! I aimed 20 laps.. bahhh!!!

Humaira.... soggy










Thursday, November 25, 2004

Pay Day!! WoooHhoooOOoOOOoo!!

Its that kind of day again... the day that i've been waiting for sooo looonggg!!!!

I tot this day will never come. The agony of waiting... the desperation for it to come sooon.... gosh! Only Allah knows how longing i am towards this day... my Pay Day....

So... i haf extra cash today. But then, learning from previous months' lessons, i've learnt the importance of saving and not spending on impulse the HARD WAY. Alhamdulillah... managed to curb SOME of my nafsu.

I was browsing through the whole models of digital camera @ Harvey Norman. It was soo tempting to present my debit card to the blue-shirt guy with striped tie and bring home a spanking new click-click. Goshhh!!!! The temptation was soo great!!! Luckily i remember that i need to give mom some contribution.. and my MENDAKI loan need to be paid... and my computer loan also need to be paid... dush!! There i went... bringing myself out of the store... sad... boohooo.... wondering wen can i get a digi cam... sigh...

Couldnt do my werk well this couple of days. My table is a mess!!! my in/out tray is at the peak of his 'nyawa'.... my in-tray.. the physical masquerade of how heavy i feel carrying the workload. Really... my In-tray just cant stand the amount of in-things waiting for me to settle that one of the 'tiang' broke. Imagine that! Thinking of buying a new tray... but.. later lar... let's utilise this one till the end.

I dun find peace doing other work when i know that the things need to be settled for this Saturday are not done. I'm still in the process of setting up the R.A.P booth during the S-L convention. I still have to write heart-felt cover letters for a number of MUIS financial assistance applicationssss.. gosh!

Oh yeah.. had a case observation session on self-mutilation. I was excited initially, coz i did a thorough exploratory research and intervention proposal on that! It definitely helps me understanding the psyche of self-mutilating, but, the counselling intervention is DIFFERENT from the ones i suggested with my group mates. QUITE different. In our project, we proposed that these teens need to occupy themselves and explore OTHER coping behaviour. We never talk about DEALING with the problems. But in counselling intervention, it is encouraged to talk about the problem, as well as talking about other ways of healthier coping methods. Interesting! Lesson learnt: NEVER, never never belittle the problem. Talk it out. People like talking bout problems i guess.. while talking, they may realise the solutions.... (????)

Jude calls... will type again.

Later!!

Humaira.... called (yipppeeee!!!!)






Tuesday, November 23, 2004

When i came home @ 1.30am.....

I'm dead beat... but i'm not sleeping. I feel... workaholic-ish tonight. Maybe because i've successfully edited a video presentation. I'm sooo happy and satisfied with the product. Voilaaaa~ perfecto (well... almost...)

Had quite a (haha!) clumsy day today. I spilled the teh susu on myself. My denim skirt was drenched with the chocolatish-coloured drink... together with some of my case files, my BAG!!!!, some of my work stuffs.. drats!

I just received my Starhub bill and good news good news.... i have the lowet amount of bill i've ever received! Double achievement for humaira today.. hip hip hurrah! hip hip hurrah! wakakakakaka....

Oh! One of my earlier favourite clients made a surprise visit. Surprise visits are never a 'good' surprise. I was getting ready for the worst case scenario... well... the REAL worst is far worst than what i've expected. He decided to leave home coz he couldnt tahan the newly 'empowered' wife. I kinda feel guilty for suggesting wife to go out to werk. But then, if she's not werking, then the family will be far worst than the current situation! Oh well... human beings... solutions will become problems.... soooo expected!

Also accompanied my colleague to visit one of her clients. Interesting getting to know the neighbourhood. I've always 'dreamt' of driving around Jurong West area and identify the blocks where my clients live.... but then... it had never happen... lets see why.... drive? identify blocks? time? fuiyoooo.... mebe wen i have license... mebe wen i have a car...mebe wen i have enough time...mebe... mebe....

I need to refresh my memory on how to operate Macromedia Director... *sigh* Hello dust.. again!

Gosh! I just slept in front of the keyboard. Oh no!!! i need to stay awake.. mebe i can eat. Hey!! but its after 8pm. Oh.. who cares? I havent had dinner anyway.. no harm eating Ayam Tuna with cream crackers waaaaad.... (reasoning antenna busy searching for reception).

orait... me haf to eat.. n search for the file.. else, my werk will never get done.

Humaira.. the director wiz (wannabe)



Saturday, November 20, 2004

The rest of the Day

The rest of the day seem uneventful.... Blah

Oh well... i went school to edit my Wrap-Up video presentation. Had to go to Jude's hostel to edit it, coz Jude has the soft and hardware. Video Camera

Jude was seen extremely stressed. Bought Jude some lunch. Jude was very snappy!!!! My patience was tested.

Worried bout Jude. Jude's been revising A LOTTTTT.... since like 2 months ago!!! But Jude claimed that Jude's not been studying. hmmmmmm...........

Singapore Idol Update American Idol : In my yesterday's entry, i mentioned Sylvester as a rich guy.. tt's why he can win the contest.... yadayada.... i take that back. New Paper reported Sly's mother was charged with some things lar.. i didnt read... but it sounds like serious.... Shock 4 Anyway... i got to know that Sly stays a few blocks away from my FSC... i tot he stays in a bungalow.. like Oli...

From now on, my prediction will change - I predict, Taufiq will win. Reason: The Malays and the Indians (led by Kumar) are rooting for him (Hahah!!! So much for multi-racialism lar!!) But seriously... if the final is to be judged based on talent and quality, Taufik's gonna win hands down. In this case, Sly still has hope, coz, although he's not rich, his fan base may be rich. Those screaming ah lians... fuuuliyau!! WHERE'S MY COTTON BUD????? I CANT HEAR MYSELF THINKING!!! Face Plant


The episode where Humaira's thinking of doing werk over the weekend






Humaira... Parentified!

Parentifying Humaira....

I was msn-ing with Azma when i realised something.... I need to be parentified, or rather, i'm becoming parentified whether i like it or not.

I feel i need to become parents to my parents now... as they're growing older. In fact, i felt i was forced into parenting my father when he was hospitalised last few months. Now, my mom looks at me for decisions. I'm not ready!! I'm still a kid!!! I need training to be a parent for my parents!!!! Nervous 2

The session went quite well just now. 2 hours worth of talking and listening. Interesting though. Time went pass so fast when i was busy analysing and understanding the family. Interesting!!! I managed to apply some of the things i've learnt in family therapy, such as letting the family members choose their own seats, let them argue infront of moi and not intervening... Kewllll!! Moi.... proud of myself.Woohoo Pat on my back (pat pat) ... tak sampai ar!!

Oh yeah... realise something diff on my blog? I haf a tagboard!!! And it is made possible by.... Abg Ian!!! You Are The Man Thanks man!!










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Friday, November 19, 2004

Please Detach Me..... Another Sad Episode

Just had a DP meeting just now... and it was... wat i'll describe as... very eventful.
Had a good frustrating discussion..and we got by it.. alhamdulillah...

Now i'm de-briefing myself (That's how to better myself isnt it?)

I realise tat, i've been feeling v. comfortable in my agency's werking culture. I felt so safe to make mistakes, i felt so loved that i believed they haf done good job in giving advice wenever i err... this is wat i describe as... menegur dengan hikmah. The feeling is Wonderful.

How can this feeling felt only in the agency? Is it the skills that these colleagues of mine posses? Or is it the level of respect we haf towards each other? Is it the level of acceptance of each other and acknowledging that we're all human beings after all? Is it the level of expectations towards each other that is just nice and realistic?

I'm not sure... but i wanna be them.

I wanna be someone who can give advice to another with the effect that he/she feels safe to talk to me again.

Sadly.. i didnt feel safe at the end of the DP meeting. I feel blamed. I feel guilty. Hmmm.... funny.... Walking Home Crying

Maybe i should mind my own business... talk less.. listen more... BUT.. I WAS listening more.. that's how the comments got by... I'm worried about the project. I dun want to overtire everyone.. more can be done by doing less. More can be achieved by doing less and effectively. More can be saved by spending less and efficiently. The syura has been decided... and i accepted it. Thus, i brought out my CONCERNS... its my right. Why do i feel guilty of doing what's right???? Arrrggg!!! The purpose of challenging an idea is to test how robust the idea is! Isnt that purposeful enuff?????

Lots of organisation process get stuck when these details are not thought of. Moi juz trying to apply watever tips moi haf learnt.. that's all.... Why do i have to defend this??????

Enuff bout that.

Message to self: DO NOT BE BOGGED DOWN WITH THIS. THIS IS INDEED A CHALLENGE TO SELF. ASSERT SELF'S VALUES, BELIEFS AND PRINCIPLE. BE OPEN MINDED. ELSE, tawakkal 'alal laah. HE is the Almighty and All Knowing.


Case closed. Will open wenever deem need to.
Jude's bz revising for exams. Jude's stressedNervous. Pity Jude...

I'm having 2 difficult cases tomorrow; drug and drug. I need rest and sleep. But i cant help crying Cry Allah... help me!!!!

On a lighter note.. (i just feel i need to record this) Jude went all the way back to home (from hostel) just to get a v-cam for me (i need it for the presentation) Thanks Jude. I realllllllyyy appreciate it!! haha... hope i can make it up to you some day....

Things at werk? hmmm... getting better... my in-tray is decreasing by the day. Will be increased after tomorrow's cases i think.

Heyy!! I just realised something!! I havent had dinner today!! But then.. its already past 12 midnight now.. i promised myself not to eat after 8pm. But then.. few sticks of Amicelli wont hurt ryte? Will brush teeth after this! Promise!!! Happy

Singapore idol update Love Song : OLINDA'S OUT!!! Can u believe that??? These rich Ah Bengs and Ah Lians actually voted for Sylvester!!! Goshh!!! Lets 'predict' who'll win the first S.I... i'll say... Sylvester. Face it: He's rich. He's fan base is rich. He's CHINESE. He'll just win the popularity vote. 'Fix it': Singaporeans to start opne their ears and eyes and standard and start voting for talent and x factor.. however subjective it may be.

Ok... i need to conserve energy for tomorrow's case. Goshhh!!! Allah!!! Please guide me for tomorrow's sessions with the 2 sets of families. Please guide them to your correct path. Please make easy their journey to the straight path. Allah... You are the All Knowing and Most Merciful.

The Episode that is too emotional,
humaira








Saturday, November 06, 2004

Flu da di da...

I've used countless of tissue papers today...

Not feeling well.. arrgghhh!!! Need to clean my room for Hari Raya, but no energy to do it. Sighhh...

Matters get worse when moi have a big tiff with Jude. BAH!

My day can't get any worse.....

Ah Chhooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sickly Humaira

The Statue of Green-ness


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That's me! And my bro of course. He just had his red beret on yesterday, Friday, 5 November 2004. So proud of him! He deserves it.

The whole Beret Presentation was so cool! They showed what commandos do in the real war situation. Cute. Impressive. An Eye Opener....




How i Wish....

How i wish life is like before....

when the sky is achievable
when the Everest is climbable

Life has a funny way of increasing one's hope...
and dash it in a few moment

Maybe thats how Life develop humans
'developing' by changing?

I can barely know myself
How to move from here?
I'm stuck
I'm stuck

Hatred overcomes me
Loathes surrounds me
Love is unknown
Memories almost gone

I said 'almost' didnt I?
Is there still hope for us?

How i wish it's simpler
easy to lead and comprehend

How i wish i can claim the tears
for the tears wasn't worth the value

How i wish i'm leading one life....
one life that's full of me.......

me.me.me.

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

And the Americans shall decide....

Its between Bush and Kerry... Who will win? We shall see....

The Channel News Asia provides FULL coverage on this 'reality TV Show'. The show so REAL, it can affet their lives. This is interesting. Scary at the same time.

Either decision, the world will certainly react to Americans' decisions. That reaction scares me most. What if the AlQaeda hates the new president? will there be another bombing? Will there be less dustbins in Singapore? Will there be more security guards oggling, i mean, observing every single person passing them.....

OoooOoo.. Shucks!
I'm sleepy now.
Age's catching up on me...l real FUN

Tuesday, November 02, 2004


Fav Movie!! Posted by Hello

On the way to Perhentian Island Posted by Hello

Nan and me on our Graduation Day Posted by Hello