Has been quite a while since i write.... here's the update of my life....
(1) broken up
(2) was broken up
(3) broken up
(4) was broken up
(5) Went to a 2-week intensive Social work orientation course
(6) Almost went to Aceh for relief effort
(7) Went to an Overseas meeting
(8) became a participant in a SAFF camp
(9) Found my number 1 love..... again~
Which one is juicier? shall start with number 1....
Yerp! We broke up. After 10++ months of wonderful times. We're still friends tho'. Really good frens. I wish him all the best in his future endevours.
I totally understand the decision. It was a hard one.. for him to make that decision. It was harder for me to accept it (took me a week to do that). But we just had to do what we did. It IS for the best, insyaAllah.
Getting over the wonderful relationship wasnt easy. I seek comfort in my friends' company. Thanks Lieja for being there. Hisham... for knocking sense and re-living my strength. Fidza for being a buddy... Kak Raihan, Kak Ana and Kak Fajar for listening. I'm blessed. Despite all the encouragement and motivation... i missed him dearly. I sometimes still do. But life goes on.... (holding back tears)
Did a lot of muhasabah. Did a lot of 'crisis counseling' for myself. I realise where i went wrong. As much as i want to point fingers and tell him his faults, i cant. i cant find his faults, and.... i dun see the need to do that. I went into the relationship because it was a choice. I am happy or sad in the relationship because i choose to. Even though separation wasnt MY choice... the fact that i chose to accept his decision.... i have to live with it. Life's a choice. Be responsible of the consequence.
Getting over him was bearable, thanks to the busy schedule too. Had to undergo an extensive 2-weeks orientation course. It was wonderful. Met a lot of fellow social workers who are zealous enough in embarking the new career. I'm glad i meet them. Learnt a lot of things too. Not the normal boring theoretical NUS kinda lessons. This is PRACTICAL and REALISTIC. Fantastic!! Systems were introduced. Questions were answered. Skills were developed. I had fun.
On the 22nd of Jan, the Saff Management Committee went to an overseas meeting @ Kelana Johor Bahru. Meeting the brothers and sisters from KARISMA was heartwarming. They are the most sincere people i've ever met. Their motive is clear. To serve/volunteer in the name of Allah. And it can be seen from their hard work and sacrifice.
Part of the programme is a sharing session with Dr Latiff. He shared with us his experience in Banda Aceh. We cried reflecting the sorrows and losses experienced by our fellow brothers and sisters. Our hearts and doas for the victims and the survivors.
Earlier during the day, brother (my boss) called and asked if i'm interested to go to Aceh for relief effort. PPIS will be sending 4 counsellors to Aceh under Mercy Relief. I jumped on it. This is a golden opportunity to develop in the real setting! I've been waiting for this opportunity. However, on Monday, Mercy called and said that they want only 3. Me being the most junior from the others, have to wait for another opportunity.
I was sad. I was so ready to go. Nevertheless, i know that there's hikmah behind this turn of event. Perhaps my niyyah wasnt clear. To help in the name of Allah, or to escape from my sadness in my own land? I take this as a hikmah... an opportunity for me to brush up my skills. InsyaAllah..... there will be another opprotunity to go there.
Went to SAFF's Mukhayyam Ar-Ruhi during the weekend. It was a self/soul searching experience. We talked about love and how we prioritise our love. We talked about relationship with Allah. We talked about how to manage relationship with future spouse. Good info!
Found my true number 1 love~~~~ and i shall cherish that love. As that love will help me endure the challenges in life... the motivation for my strife... and the seed for my excellence. Allah.....
The new red ----- PURE
humaira
Monday, January 31, 2005
Saturday, January 01, 2005
Thursday, December 30, 2004
Art Exploration Camp org by Youth Inc
I'm off to an Art Exploration Camp @ NAFA!
The campus is unique, as it's situated in the middle of a busy road. There's a mosque right infront of it actually... called as Masjid Bencoolen. Interesting mosque.
So i went there. Was very pissed off early in the morning lar. My client's children decided to 'bubble' me at the very last minute. Here's the story.
I have a number of Out-of-School youth clients. Thus, i suggested that they participate in this camp as it is designed for them. Initially, they agreed. Parents signed the forms. I even went to their house the day before the 1st day of camp to ensure that they'll attend. They dun wanna go, they said. The eldest sister said she may be called up for work. The brother is kinda sick, the youngest brother is not staying with the family at the moment. Ok then.... so i went back. They smsed me saying that they might come. Ok lah... i was happy. Until the next day when i was on my way in the cab, she smsed again saying that she didnt wanna go. FICKLE!!!!!! Sooo pissed!!
In a way, i should have pre-empted that. They have not been to school for a time being, and quite incompetent in social skills. They might be scared of meeting new people. I'm determined to not give up on them. Pissed can. Give up cannot.
I was happy tho' that Hanafy was there, as well as my centre's other client. He's a volunteer also anyway.
The camp was a very good exposure for all of us. For me personally, i've made considerably good networks with the enthusiastic youths who're very zealous in volunteering. Din, for example, as weird as he might look (heh!), he is so lovable and so helpful. He volunteered in a Hospice before and be friend a cancer patient. He began volunteering since primary 2. How kewl is that. Other than Din, i met Hidayah, her cousin (gosh! i'm very bad at names!!), Ezzat and OSCAR!! yes! Oscar! How can i forget Oscar. She's the MAN behind this camp. A manager of NAFA's Student Affairs, she is the epitome of dynamic and sensitive. Her artworks are marvelous!! And she inspired me to start my very own scrapbook.
I had a number of first experiences in this camp. Excellent Exploration camp. You dont only explore Arts, you explore yourself..... by doing art. Interesting huh?
The most memorable one: The sculpturing. I didnt know what i've sculptured, dun ask me wat's that. But, before that THING was coloured, i have the official cameraman admiring my artwerk. I'm complimented!
Nevermind what i think/feel after it was coloured.
I had soo much fun sculpturing that i asked more plaster powder to bring home. So i can make one at home or office! wooOOoHHoOOOooO!!
The last day of the camp, Dr Vivian came to visit us. That was a tough moment for organisers as initial news informed us that Doc was called up for an urgent meeting by the Prime Minister at 2pm. He's supposed to be with us @ that time. But then, the later news informed that he'll still want to come to see us after the urgent meeting. So sweet of him.
To welcome him, we did a mural painting. Kewl!!! The end product is excellent!!!!!!!
The 3-day non-residental camp was very tiring.
Nyte!
the sculpture making
The campus is unique, as it's situated in the middle of a busy road. There's a mosque right infront of it actually... called as Masjid Bencoolen. Interesting mosque.
So i went there. Was very pissed off early in the morning lar. My client's children decided to 'bubble' me at the very last minute. Here's the story.
I have a number of Out-of-School youth clients. Thus, i suggested that they participate in this camp as it is designed for them. Initially, they agreed. Parents signed the forms. I even went to their house the day before the 1st day of camp to ensure that they'll attend. They dun wanna go, they said. The eldest sister said she may be called up for work. The brother is kinda sick, the youngest brother is not staying with the family at the moment. Ok then.... so i went back. They smsed me saying that they might come. Ok lah... i was happy. Until the next day when i was on my way in the cab, she smsed again saying that she didnt wanna go. FICKLE!!!!!! Sooo pissed!!
In a way, i should have pre-empted that. They have not been to school for a time being, and quite incompetent in social skills. They might be scared of meeting new people. I'm determined to not give up on them. Pissed can. Give up cannot.
I was happy tho' that Hanafy was there, as well as my centre's other client. He's a volunteer also anyway.
The camp was a very good exposure for all of us. For me personally, i've made considerably good networks with the enthusiastic youths who're very zealous in volunteering. Din, for example, as weird as he might look (heh!), he is so lovable and so helpful. He volunteered in a Hospice before and be friend a cancer patient. He began volunteering since primary 2. How kewl is that. Other than Din, i met Hidayah, her cousin (gosh! i'm very bad at names!!), Ezzat and OSCAR!! yes! Oscar! How can i forget Oscar. She's the MAN behind this camp. A manager of NAFA's Student Affairs, she is the epitome of dynamic and sensitive. Her artworks are marvelous!! And she inspired me to start my very own scrapbook.
I had a number of first experiences in this camp. Excellent Exploration camp. You dont only explore Arts, you explore yourself..... by doing art. Interesting huh?
The most memorable one: The sculpturing. I didnt know what i've sculptured, dun ask me wat's that. But, before that THING was coloured, i have the official cameraman admiring my artwerk. I'm complimented!
Nevermind what i think/feel after it was coloured.
I had soo much fun sculpturing that i asked more plaster powder to bring home. So i can make one at home or office! wooOOoHHoOOOooO!!
The last day of the camp, Dr Vivian came to visit us. That was a tough moment for organisers as initial news informed us that Doc was called up for an urgent meeting by the Prime Minister at 2pm. He's supposed to be with us @ that time. But then, the later news informed that he'll still want to come to see us after the urgent meeting. So sweet of him.
To welcome him, we did a mural painting. Kewl!!! The end product is excellent!!!!!!!
The 3-day non-residental camp was very tiring.
Nyte!
the sculpture making
Sunday, December 26, 2004
The Boxing Day
After a day picnic-ing, we decided to go for a canopy walk at McRitchie reservoir. The morning was really sunny... beautiful morning. Instead of performing my 'hands-up-till-the-vacant-cab-stops-infront-of-me' routine, i went for a proper exercise.
Cik Yah drove us all to the place. When i said 'us', i mean all 10 of us; Cik Yah the driver, my mader the co-pilot who can't handle the wheel, myself the camerawoman with the shining new Canon Ixus 4.0, kak Mamas the childcarer, Wajihah the sarcastic, Aishah the trekker with slippers, Shafiq the only Boy, Haslinda the quiet one, Munirah the baby and Noraini... who's supposed to be our guide for the day. She made us lost. We were trapped in the dunno wat for a good 3 hours!!!!!!! After the walk, everyone was very cranky. We bought Nasi Lemak from Adam Rd. I could see smiles in thoses faces again. Munirah the youngest 'trekker' were so cute throughout the sesat session. She kept asking in a matter-of-fact manner 'Why do we have to go for a canopy walk? Is it important in life?' and the most threatening question that i simply cant answer: "Are we There Yet?" When she asked that, her sister or i would piggyback her. And yeah! My back hurts.
After the delicious makan2 session and shower and solat, ALL of us lepak!! Until 6pm when my other aunt called to inform bout the multiple earthquakes that happened to various places. We switched to CNA and followed the news. I was scared. And still tired.
Despite the natural disaster happening outside, i had fun spending time with my family.
The Kuzzins
Cik Yah drove us all to the place. When i said 'us', i mean all 10 of us; Cik Yah the driver, my mader the co-pilot who can't handle the wheel, myself the camerawoman with the shining new Canon Ixus 4.0, kak Mamas the childcarer, Wajihah the sarcastic, Aishah the trekker with slippers, Shafiq the only Boy, Haslinda the quiet one, Munirah the baby and Noraini... who's supposed to be our guide for the day. She made us lost. We were trapped in the dunno wat for a good 3 hours!!!!!!! After the walk, everyone was very cranky. We bought Nasi Lemak from Adam Rd. I could see smiles in thoses faces again. Munirah the youngest 'trekker' were so cute throughout the sesat session. She kept asking in a matter-of-fact manner 'Why do we have to go for a canopy walk? Is it important in life?' and the most threatening question that i simply cant answer: "Are we There Yet?" When she asked that, her sister or i would piggyback her. And yeah! My back hurts.
After the delicious makan2 session and shower and solat, ALL of us lepak!! Until 6pm when my other aunt called to inform bout the multiple earthquakes that happened to various places. We switched to CNA and followed the news. I was scared. And still tired.
Despite the natural disaster happening outside, i had fun spending time with my family.
The Kuzzins
Saturday, December 25, 2004
Celebrated Christmas Holiday picnic-ing with my family. The whole Taib clan was there.... enjoying selves. I came to West Coast a bit late. Hehe.... was collecting my spanking NEW handphone (i'm LOVING IT!). Kewwwllll!!! Well, my sister is growing up, and she decided to own a handphone. So, i bought her a new line and i take the new hp. Gave my old hp to her. My theory: new hp user must use old hp - in case it gets lost.
So... going back to the picnic story... I'm in charged of games for this gathering. It was sooo FUN playing camp-like games with your family members. Zaki, Wajihah n moi are SAFF members, so they are expected to help me when i blunder. So high hope lar!!! They dun cooperate one!! Thank goodness Abang Sabri was there. He suggested this Blanket/Wayang Kulit game. I improvised a bit... and voila!!!! Fun watching surprised faces from my aunties n uncle!! Hahahahahaha!!! Wat a day.....
Used my NEW camera (haha!! December is gadget month. Bonus lar...) to capture the wonderful memories... Lurve my family LOTS!!!
Kewl little Munirah made her mom laugh!
She made everyone laughed!
So... going back to the picnic story... I'm in charged of games for this gathering. It was sooo FUN playing camp-like games with your family members. Zaki, Wajihah n moi are SAFF members, so they are expected to help me when i blunder. So high hope lar!!! They dun cooperate one!! Thank goodness Abang Sabri was there. He suggested this Blanket/Wayang Kulit game. I improvised a bit... and voila!!!! Fun watching surprised faces from my aunties n uncle!! Hahahahahaha!!! Wat a day.....
Used my NEW camera (haha!! December is gadget month. Bonus lar...) to capture the wonderful memories... Lurve my family LOTS!!!
Kewl little Munirah made her mom laugh!
She made everyone laughed!
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