Has been quite a while since i write.... here's the update of my life....

(1) broken up
(2) was broken up
(3) broken up
(4) was broken up
(5) Went to a 2-week intensive Social work orientation course
(6) Almost went to Aceh for relief effort
(7) Went to an Overseas meeting
(8) became a participant in a SAFF camp
(9) Found my number 1 love..... again~

Which one is juicier? shall start with number 1....

Yerp! We broke up. After 10++ months of wonderful times. We're still friends tho'. Really good frens. I wish him all the best in his future endevours.

I totally understand the decision. It was a hard one.. for him to make that decision. It was harder for me to accept it (took me a week to do that). But we just had to do what we did. It IS for the best, insyaAllah.

Getting over the wonderful relationship wasnt easy. I seek comfort in my friends' company. Thanks Lieja for being there. Hisham... for knocking sense and re-living my strength. Fidza for being a buddy... Kak Raihan, Kak Ana and Kak Fajar for listening. I'm blessed. Despite all the encouragement and motivation... i missed him dearly. I sometimes still do. But life goes on.... (holding back tears)

Did a lot of muhasabah. Did a lot of 'crisis counseling' for myself. I realise where i went wrong. As much as i want to point fingers and tell him his faults, i cant. i cant find his faults, and.... i dun see the need to do that. I went into the relationship because it was a choice. I am happy or sad in the relationship because i choose to. Even though separation wasnt MY choice... the fact that i chose to accept his decision.... i have to live with it. Life's a choice. Be responsible of the consequence.

Getting over him was bearable, thanks to the busy schedule too. Had to undergo an extensive 2-weeks orientation course. It was wonderful. Met a lot of fellow social workers who are zealous enough in embarking the new career. I'm glad i meet them. Learnt a lot of things too. Not the normal boring theoretical NUS kinda lessons. This is PRACTICAL and REALISTIC. Fantastic!! Systems were introduced. Questions were answered. Skills were developed. I had fun.

On the 22nd of Jan, the Saff Management Committee went to an overseas meeting @ Kelana Johor Bahru. Meeting the brothers and sisters from KARISMA was heartwarming. They are the most sincere people i've ever met. Their motive is clear. To serve/volunteer in the name of Allah. And it can be seen from their hard work and sacrifice.

Part of the programme is a sharing session with Dr Latiff. He shared with us his experience in Banda Aceh. We cried reflecting the sorrows and losses experienced by our fellow brothers and sisters. Our hearts and doas for the victims and the survivors.

Earlier during the day, brother (my boss) called and asked if i'm interested to go to Aceh for relief effort. PPIS will be sending 4 counsellors to Aceh under Mercy Relief. I jumped on it. This is a golden opportunity to develop in the real setting! I've been waiting for this opportunity. However, on Monday, Mercy called and said that they want only 3. Me being the most junior from the others, have to wait for another opportunity.

I was sad. I was so ready to go. Nevertheless, i know that there's hikmah behind this turn of event. Perhaps my niyyah wasnt clear. To help in the name of Allah, or to escape from my sadness in my own land? I take this as a hikmah... an opportunity for me to brush up my skills. InsyaAllah..... there will be another opprotunity to go there.

Went to SAFF's Mukhayyam Ar-Ruhi during the weekend. It was a self/soul searching experience. We talked about love and how we prioritise our love. We talked about relationship with Allah. We talked about how to manage relationship with future spouse. Good info!

Found my true number 1 love~~~~ and i shall cherish that love. As that love will help me endure the challenges in life... the motivation for my strife... and the seed for my excellence. Allah.....

The new red ----- PURE
humaira

me n my associate staff