Friday, May 27, 2005

The week humaira was inspired.....

Inspiration #1 - Tuesday, 24 May 2005

The book Tuesdays with Morrie was bought to commemorate her 23rd year on earth.

I'm getting older, might as well aspire to be wiser.

She thought.

And so, she read, to learn about death, and the beauty of life.

She learnt about growing old. About the beauty of age.

"Aging is not just decay. It's growth. It's more than just the negative that you're going to die, it's also the positive that you understood you're going to die, and that you live a better life because of it" Morrie said.

Hmmm... now, humaira doesnt need to hide her age =D
She's proud of the years she'd spent on earth.
She yearns to grow older. To see life. To embrace it. To cherish it.
She appreciates death.
Prepared? Not yet!
Trying to..? Yes =D

"I look back sometimes at the person i was before I rediscovered my old professor. I want to talk to that person. I want to tell him what to look out for, what mistakes to avoid. I want to tell him to be more open, to ignore the lure of advertised values, to pay attention when your loved ones are speaking, as if it were the last time you might hear them"
~Mitch Albom

Humaira wondered.

Lesson 1~If she can tell the 22-year-old Humaira what to look out for and what mistakes to avoid, life may be easier now. But hey, that's cheating. "Stand up from where i fell!" She said. "And move on!!" She screamed.

She's moving on all right.

Eh! Moving to???

Lesson 2~ LISTEN

That's when she had her third inspiration.

Inspiration #2 - Wednesday, 25 May 2005

Today... Humaira witnessed the fruits of her labour.

All the weeks of carving and shaping... playing games and processing messages...

Disclosing how disappointed and hurtful she was when her instructions were not heard...

Humaira felt like a teacher.

But, consciously telling herself, she should not.

That's the last thing the students need - to have another person shouting down their necks and telling them what to do.

She n her partner felt noble returning the power of decision-making to the students.

They were given the freedom to choose whether they want to stay in the circle.

That, alhamdulillah, broke the barrier between US and THEM.

Thanks guys for your appreciation.

The affirmation motivates Humaira to strive better for her next quest.

Thanks for the wonderful experience.

You kids, i pray for your well-being. Stay safe and trouble-free yar?

Set your goal and strive to achieve it!

Hmmm... What's HER goal and what should SHE achieve??

Humaira reflects... and reflects... and reflects...

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Inspiration #3 - Thursday, 26 May 2005

She continued reflecting.

She was given the OPPORTUNITY today... to voice it out.

She verbalised about being confused. Unsure. Puzzled.

Yeah yeah... having goals are important. But what kind?

Goals haf to be strategic. She thought. She wanted hers to be beneficial not only to her, but to the community as well.

How?

She talked about her experience at work. How she felt alone and drowning and depressed and she knows her ego is attacked countless of times.

What should she do?? Give her tips!!

The answer.

She has a good tool to be a good muslim (she was surprised by the answer)

Muhasabah.
Meta-analysis.
Superior state of thinking.

MasyaAllah. She thanked Allah for the affirmation.
Thanks sis for looking BEYOND me.

Manage her ego she must do. As ego is related closely with eeman.
Imagine when one stops listening.
Wonder how many errors can she make and not knowing that she's committing them?

Listen my dear.
Accept.
Be humble.

Humaira was touched.
Her soul was touched.
Her heart was touched.
Her mind was touched.

Just by the simple answer.
Ask Allah.

Her inspiration was concluded with surah al-Hadeed, verse 27 - 29

"Subsequent to them, we sent our messengers. We sent Jesus the son of Mary, and we gave him the Injeel, and we placed in the hearts of his followers kindness and mercy. But they invented hermitism which we never decreed for them. All we asked them to do was to uphold the commandments approved by GOD. But they did not uphold the messages as they should have. Consequently, we gave those who believed among them their recompense, while many of them were wicked.

O you who believe, you shall reverence GOD and believe in His messenger. He will then grant you double the reward from His mercy, endow you with light to guide you, and forgive you. GOD is Forgiver, Most Merciful.

Thus, the followers of previous scripture should know that they have not monopolized GOD's mercy and grace, and that all grace is in GOD's hand. He bestows it upon whomever He wills. GOD is Possessor of Infinite Grace.

~Alhadeed, 27-29
Humaira...... inspired, and smiling

Monday, May 23, 2005


The fountain... I'm in ROME!! Posted by Hello

The other 2 Posted by Hello

FigG N Olive Posted by Hello
The day we holiday at home.... Really feel like its in KL! :)


Singing our hearts out Posted by Hello

Yummmyyy!!!! Brunch! Posted by Hello

Saturday, May 21, 2005

And so, we've officially and voluntarily declared our imprisonment to the organising of Singapore-Malaysia 10th Youth Camp. Pressure? Stress? Anxious? Excited? Name it. Those are the feelings jumbling in our stomach.

I'm just sooo tired. Read the pics.


No matter how many times we took pic, we appeared VERY TIRED!! Posted by Hello

Good friends, Fun bunch, Great games!! We had fun! Tired. And Fun.

n i HAF to close my eyes.... Posted by Hello

Thursday, May 19, 2005

It's been 4 days after the Youth Leadership Seminar, and i havent get the chance to rest. Yesterday's sleep was interrupted. I dreamt of systems and strategies on how to win 'them' over and give us 40k to renovate the Youth Centre. Call me pathetic... by all means.. i feel the same way too... believe me

I'm beginning to wonder if there's life if i decide to be 100% involved in da'wah jama'ie effort. I enjoy going out with jieja till late at nights. No da'wah effort. Just listening to each others' woes and banterings about work and life in general. Fulfilling? May not seem so. Fun and relaxing? You bet. It feels so good after a session of complaining and bitching.

The past week has been very trying for me. I know. I cant complain because it was a choice. I CHOSE to be involved in the effort, and this is part of the consequence. The product is supposed to be sweet. That's what pple say. I havent been able to taste it.... yet.... i dunno... have i?

If i wasn't involved in the seminar, i wouldnt have met the wonderful adik2z from Nur Ikhwan. I might not be as inspired as i am.. after learning their struggles and challenges faced just to uphold for what they believe in.

Entahlah.. i dunno why i'm feeling this. Maybe i'm just tired. As mentioned by ustaz Hannan, be tied, but not tired... sigh... sorry ustaz.. i cant help it. Allah help me!!

Things at the werkplace is not helping much too.. maybe i'm different from the rest. I feel so detached from the rest tseh! I am deemed as so serious. I AM NOT. Maybe because, most of my colleagues are experiencing different life stages, and most of them are similar to one another. 2 madly in luv, 1 awaiting for the born of the first child, 1 reliving love, 1 fresh and all out to work while seemingly different from b4, 1 buat keje sendiri and is the talk of the office, 1 with so many faces and finally 1 ..... arrgghhh... i cant possibly talk to this one. So, do the math.

UwaaAaAaAaaa~~~

I wanna talk to someone about life. Things i cant find in textbooks.

Feed me with knowledge!! I'm starved!!

Humaira.... 1 year anniversary, and STILL figuring out the stuupid Office politics

Monday, May 16, 2005


NI Team Posted by Hello

NI!!!!!!!!! Posted by Hello

The maarip gerls Posted by Hello

this sounds good!! Posted by Hello

Hmmm.. Spelling... all correct! Posted by Hello

our mind(boggling) map Posted by Hello

the bantal Posted by Hello

spell check Posted by Hello

huh?!? Posted by Hello

so how? dunno Posted by Hello

complete group Posted by Hello

think think think Posted by Hello

diskus diskus diskus Posted by Hello

ngantuk Posted by Hello

late night discussion Posted by Hello

Complete group... COFFEEE!! SAVIOUR!!! Posted by Hello

if u wanna come to a seminar.. open eyes big big Posted by Hello

The blur sistaz.. haha Posted by Hello